I am embarking on a journey. It will be a test of endurance, strength of mind, and fortitude.
For one week, starting at 5:15pm each day, I am going to unplug. No internet. I am not sure when I started to notice that it was becoming a problem, but between looking at innumerable websites as well as working on this blog I noticed that if I am not hooping - I am internetting.
My boyfriend and I used to have dinner together everyday. Now we each eat across from the Holy Machine of Light that is the computer. I find myself unable to sleep because my brain has just endured six or seven hours of nonstop information at unreasonable frequency. My mind is cluttered.
I want to take a little self imposed isolation so that I can start to delve into my style and myself. The most challenging thing for me to do in hoop performance is to connect with the audience. I can't figure out what I am trying to say or why I am hooping other than "I love it,"or "it's fun."
The experience is much deeper than that and so far I haven't been able to communicate it. What do I think? Want to say? I don't know - anything I ever try to find out I just look up online.
The internet is a wonderful, wonderful thing. I get so much joy out of writing here, sharing with others, and connecting with people who I otherwise would not have known. But I think it is important to realize when something good starts to have negative effects and to take a step back and ground yourself again.
This blog is part of my work and life and I will happily continue to update it everyday. But after work hours? Zero internet. Just see what I want to do and what I can learn. Is it going to suck? Yep. Sure will, in the beginning. But I think it will be an experience that will help me know what I am trying to say by getting my mind to a state in which I can hear.